Well one.. i'm upp. And its like 10.. suprising. Seriously...

Two, i just pissed someone off, but i don't think hes mad anymore.


But I still feel bad.. although i shouldn't because he kinda deserved it.. (hehehe)

And three, i'm totally confused at what is happening in my life right now. Its sooo confusing. I feel bad for hurting people, but then i'm getting myself hurt.. like everytime i talk to him i feel my heart like squeeze. And when i say something about how i feel or whatever, my heart accelerates. Then everytime someone else tells me about how hes hanging out with another girl my heart drops. And then i hurt again.. If only he knew that age doesn't matter at all to me. I've dealt with age difference before.. its not really a problem.. well to me its not. Oh well.. i can't sto phim from being with girls who ARE his age.. I'm pretty much used to the bad feelings he put inside me. I don't know what to do anymore.. no one has ever made me happy and sad at the same time.. If only he knew..